Broke Black Girl

Life Is A Journey

3rd Entry

Dear Me,

I am awake very early this morning, even though I went to bed at 3am. So, I’m working with three hours of sleep here. This entry will most likely not make any sense!

Had my interview  yesterday, it wasn’t too bad. Very nice office. There are six partners in the engineering firm, all of them are men and none of them are black. There is one Asian guy and one Hispanic. The only woman that works there is the receptionist. She told me that the previous admin assistant quit because she couldn’t do the job. I thought that was funny, how hard is it to do office work? Not hard at all for me. Based on what I was told in the interview though, they’re not looking for an admin assistant. They are looking for an executive assistant, definitely not the same job. But, they’re not paying an exec assistant salary. Of course at this point, I’ll take what I can get. I’m thinking that the previous lady left because of the pay. Again, I’ll take what I can get, I’ve been unemployed long enough! I hope to hear from them sometime next week, keeping my fingers crossed until then.

After my interview, I met some friends for dinner. My friend Monica just got engaged and she is planning her wedding. She invited us to dinner to ask us to be in her wedding party. I told her that I had to think about it. Bridesmaids dresses are not cheap, and my funds are low. I also told her that she should’ve gotten married when I was working and had money in the bank! I’ll probably do it though, that’s what friends are for right? Darius (her fiance) is a cool guy, and I’m happy for both of them.

I’m not even going to start whining about my half-assed relationship…that’s for another entry. I will admit though, that I was just a tiny bit envious when Darius and Monica announced their engagement. I think that was only natural.

Okay, I wasn’t a tiny bit envious…I was jealous as hell! Smile I can admit that to my journal and not feel bad about it. I guess I’ll just be the happy, quiet bridesmaid. It can’t be that bad. I hope…

~~SDF~~

2nd Entry

Dear Me,

Good morning! I can’t believe that I’m back, but here I am!

I have a job interview later today, and I’m nervous as hell. Did I mention how much I hate job interviews? I really, really hate them…but I usually do well. Hopefully this one will go well. It’s an admin asst. job with an architectural firm. I sent them my resume two weeks ago, and they called me yesterday. So, I didn’t have a lot of time to get mentally ready, but I’ll do my best. Crossing my fingers!

I really need this job, my car is on it’s last legs I think. I cranked it up this morning and it just didn’t sound like it wanted to crank up. Need some major work done on it, because if it breaks down…I am screwed.

My hair is not cooperating with me today, so I think I’m going to do a ponytail. Now that I think about it…I wonder how conservative this firm is??? Some people don’t respond well to dreadlocks…sigh. I have had these dreadlocks for 3 years and I’m not cutting them, so I’m going to have to win them over with my stunning personality! Smile

I have noticed that white folks don’t usually have a problem with my locks, they probably think I have braids. I mostly get flak from my people, to be more specific, black women! To be even more specific, black women in my family…some of these women wore Afros and dashikis back in the day, but they wanna give me hell about my hair, some people huh?

When my hair was short I heard, “Girl, when are you going to do something with your hair?” “I don’t see how you go to work everyday looking like that” “Why don’t you get a perm, do you want me to pay for it?” Crazy right?!

As my hair got longer I heard, “Why did you put those fake braids in your hair?” “Is that your real hair?” “Hmmm, how often do you wash that mess?” Mess??

I couldn’t even laugh at that one, told her that I wash my hair 3 times a week then I got pissed. I asked her how often she washed that thinning bird nest on her head!! She left me alone after that…now she just looks at me funny when she sees me. She’ll get over it though, maybe I’ll get her a nice wig for Christmas Haha!!

Well, I need to get ready for my interview…fingers still crossed!

~~SDF~~